an anniversary of sorts
this past weekend I went to Toronto to see snail...
it was goooooooooood to be there...
my mission was to "mark" everything I could...
including her.... :D
but seriously, its the house she grew up in and the house her father abused her in - year after year. "Jim", her father... has a small cottage-like house near a lake north of Toronto. I was thinking the whole time... that I wanted to put my mark on that place - so that every where she looked she felt my presence. I think I did that well... now hopefully she won't get in trouble for having me visit. "They" were in Europe on vacation.... she was watching the house and the pets. And working in mom's store...
The best news of the weekend was that she didn't have a nightmare on Saturday night. And the kissing ? yeah there was good kissing... so I feel full, or at least my tank is not still running on empty.
Saturday night we watched Almost Famous - great film... if you haven't seen it... rent it.
She made me a CD for the drive home... it was great to have some new music to listen to. She has great taste in music. I loved especially her playing piano for me in the last hours before I had to leave.
It was a year ago we met in person... we've been friends on line for a year and a half.
so happy anniversary to Sir and snail... from a newbie subbie to a collared slave girl... she's grown so much and battle her demons. Over and over she's set such a great example of battling against what seems impossible and staying positive that I've simply had to do the same.
W/we are so much more now than I ever thought we could be... and I often wish when I'm with her that I could be 25 again... no kids... and ready to start life. Unfortunately, I'm not 25 ...I'm 46 with 3 kids and a wife that I can't help or fix or heal... my life is so different than I ever thought it would turn out... I try to be a good man, a good father... and once upon a time I REALLY tried to be a great husband. Lately, I hear that I am pressuring and badgering. And snail? She accepts me as I am. Loves me as I am... warts and perfections mixing into the confused and hurting Sir you see before you.
Once again, SNAIL is just that... always moving forward, never fast but always steadfast.
And snail says I'm "fucking hot".
*looks in the mirror
could that be true?
or is blaze right when she told me, "no self respecting sub would want you, Sir"...
you know something...
it feels like right now I should circle the wagons... defend the battlements...
fight to keep my friends close and my enemies closer...
ignore the hurt and keep on Fighting For It All.
Thank you Mindy Smith
"how your soul learns... blessed and burned in the fire of your life!"
it was goooooooooood to be there...
my mission was to "mark" everything I could...
including her.... :D
but seriously, its the house she grew up in and the house her father abused her in - year after year. "Jim", her father... has a small cottage-like house near a lake north of Toronto. I was thinking the whole time... that I wanted to put my mark on that place - so that every where she looked she felt my presence. I think I did that well... now hopefully she won't get in trouble for having me visit. "They" were in Europe on vacation.... she was watching the house and the pets. And working in mom's store...
The best news of the weekend was that she didn't have a nightmare on Saturday night. And the kissing ? yeah there was good kissing... so I feel full, or at least my tank is not still running on empty.
Saturday night we watched Almost Famous - great film... if you haven't seen it... rent it.
She made me a CD for the drive home... it was great to have some new music to listen to. She has great taste in music. I loved especially her playing piano for me in the last hours before I had to leave.
It was a year ago we met in person... we've been friends on line for a year and a half.
so happy anniversary to Sir and snail... from a newbie subbie to a collared slave girl... she's grown so much and battle her demons. Over and over she's set such a great example of battling against what seems impossible and staying positive that I've simply had to do the same.
W/we are so much more now than I ever thought we could be... and I often wish when I'm with her that I could be 25 again... no kids... and ready to start life. Unfortunately, I'm not 25 ...I'm 46 with 3 kids and a wife that I can't help or fix or heal... my life is so different than I ever thought it would turn out... I try to be a good man, a good father... and once upon a time I REALLY tried to be a great husband. Lately, I hear that I am pressuring and badgering. And snail? She accepts me as I am. Loves me as I am... warts and perfections mixing into the confused and hurting Sir you see before you.
Once again, SNAIL is just that... always moving forward, never fast but always steadfast.
And snail says I'm "fucking hot".
*looks in the mirror
could that be true?
or is blaze right when she told me, "no self respecting sub would want you, Sir"...
you know something...
it feels like right now I should circle the wagons... defend the battlements...
fight to keep my friends close and my enemies closer...
ignore the hurt and keep on Fighting For It All.
Thank you Mindy Smith
"how your soul learns... blessed and burned in the fire of your life!"
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