Try imagining a place where it's always safe and warm.
"Come in," she said,
"I'll give you shelter from the storm."

she broke my heart again last night...
then snuggled me till I feel asleep crying...
she got up and talked to HIM last night...
and then was gone this morning...

and this is what she left me:

awwbabygrl (4/28/2004 5:55:32 AM): I am sorry we had such a rough night. Today is a new day and full of better possibilities for us all . I do love U and never want to hurt U...it doesn't better me and makes me sad. Thank U for all Ur help lately and with the boys it is allowing me to try to help us all and myself. i know it wasn't fair but I took 2 dollars from what U had laying out so I had something inmy pocket for my long day. I will see if I can find us some more today to get us along our way ...Hope the tummy is healing and I have my teather if U need me. Kiss my angels and tell them Mom loves them and to have a good day...XOXOX

I wish I knew what the fuck to do with all this! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr