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this is old............


















from 11/03...................

























but most of it is still too true...................








































Venita...

you left your mail box open on the computer again this morning...

I have read what you have said to Mario.



I am sitting here broken hearted...

other men would have left but I love you Venita like no man has ever loved a woman.

we have been through so much together I can't think of how to breathe without you...

we have 3 beautiful boys and they are innocent and don't deserve the rotten painful life that you are setting them up for...

your behavior is astounding... cheating...lying... and spending money that should go to bills, the car repairs and your children's teeth on drugs. But I love you...

your behavior with Mario is also astounding... and will only lead to us breaking up and selling our dreams and the children living in a crappy apartment somewhere and losing their school and who knows what else...

If I thought my words could bring you to your senses then I would be talking to you.... right now... but I can't ...you are out at work... and tonight I will be working...

I know you've probably already invited Mario to view your "show"...

I know you are silly in love with him... worse than that HE knows... you want him...

and instead of actually telling you he wants you he asks to see your pussy.

Great Man ya got there.

I will not cry over you again... you have hurt me so much but I will not cry.

You say, Venita, that you love Me... and your boys...but your behavior is astounding.

You take the mail and hide everything... won't talk about how to spend the little money we have... you may not lie to me about Mario...but what you leave out is worse than lies...

you tell him you don't want me ...but you tell me you LOVE me?

you cheat with other men... but say you don't want sex with me?

you tell him it's been years ...when I made love to you 2 times in the last week.

its all painful... lies lies lies...

the one thing we always had was that we were a TEAM....

now everyone knows our secrets and my heart is broken...

my money all a mess...

and all that I could handle... but you tell Mario and Joel 2 different stories....

WHAT IS THAT YOU WANT?

You are killing me and ruining a beautiful family...

why?

who deserves this pain?

I love you and I know there is nothing I can do but suffer until you decide it is safe to leave me and the boys...I ache for our little boys... how awful to grow up knowing that mom didn't care enough about her husband or you... that sex with someone she's never met is more important.


I would say more but NO words move you to change... you are out of control...

cruel beyond words....

my heart is so broken... I can't believe you can do this to Me. My life is a nightmare... why do you do this to me? I haven't been a perfect man... and I'm sorry for the lack of money...but I give you everything I have...

I will never give up... and I will always love you... stupid of me I know...

but it is the way I am... so I guess I get to be used and hurt over and over...

who are you venita???
I know this letter will cause lots of stress... but it will also shine a light on the shit you are hiding.... maybe if we talk we can make it better again... that is my wish.

I am sorry and I love you. Please stop and be my girl again. Please.

Tell Mario to grow up and be a Man or use someone else's wife...







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now he's been gone since just before new years..........

each day I move farther away and farther into hating you.








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