anyway I did what I thought I wanted...
 
and venita responded
and was nice to me this morning...
 
I proved once again I could make her feel good. 
 
she came 2 times at least,
 
 
 
and tonight she said...
"we're not doing that again tonight.... someday, maybe... "
I finished the sentence.  
"This morning will probably serve to confuse me more than ever when you actually leave me...  but it was medicine I needed... to just keep going.  We don't have to tell anyone we did "it".  Just in case you don't think you really want to again."
 
I know she will fuck Randy again...
and wait forever for Mario...
and I will never be touched or special to her.
perhaps mr usher is right...
I have to findawaytoletitburngottaletitburnletburngottaletitburnburnburn 
 
oh the monster I battle is a nightmare! 
 
 
 
 
"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"