oh dear...


i sit here reading Sir's blog and i cry. i cry because i can feel His pain, i cry because i think i help but i don't, i cry because im selfish, i cry because Sir hurts, because i can't make things better. im sorry for failing, i tried, i really did but i guess like everything else in life im just no good. Sometimes i used to think maybe one day i can be with Sir, be happy make things good for Him and me. But i know it's never going to happen, it's just another dream..my whole life is a dream. And dreams don't come true. im sorry You don't know me Sir, and im sorry i can't fix things for You, im sorry im not strong, im sorry i can't fight my monster, im so sorry Sir.



# posted by Nicole : 12:31 AM



I love you snail...please don't go :(

my last blog entry was a good cleansing venting release.
I didn't mean to hurt you or anyone...

if I don't flush I can't heal...
if I don't heal...
I can't love anyone the way I should...
including myself.

please understand.

I never mean to make it seem impossible...
I just have anger that can go no where but here.







Try imagining a place where it's always safe and warm.
"Come in," she said,
"I'll give you shelter from the storm."