"cut and paste"

all my life and all through time...
I waited for you spirit girl...
waited and watched and looked for a sign.

through the pain and the sorrow
and uncertain tomorrow.
we step and we strain...
we count on each other
to inspire again.

but time and tenderness
can not erase
the damage we do...
as we seek the next place...

you ask him
I ask you
to cut and to paste
a goodbye to me
one that seals my fate...

cut and paste
a note on my heart
that says...
it is too late.

And in that find freedom
No love songs...no forever.
And from that time onward...
loving you never.

you can make up the truth
the headlines could change
all of my life I would rearrange.

if you're cutting and pasting
cut out what's wrong.
forget sad goodbyes...
and just sing my song.

which words will you choose
a love song to share...
or will you find strength...
to send words I can't bare?

all of my life
in all the minutes I waste...
I am hoping and praying,
you don't cut and paste.









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1. the most moving time the two of you have ever had together...sharing, loving and so glad you are a couple...what made the bottle rockets go off, what was the attraction to the other.....one of the most precious times your mind goes to sometimes...and describe how you felt when you remembered that time right now.....
The most moving time... together. There could be many answers to this question. In our years together there have been victories and thrills, love and sharing... big laughs and secret jokes. For this answer I am going to say that while there are MANY moments... not many compare to August 15th, 1995.

We made love that day, my wife and I. And we made our second son THAT day, Andrew. I still remember clearly making love for a long delicious time... then lifting up and pausing. I looked into her eyes and thrust back into her hard... over and over... I was NOT wearing a condom. Just like most of the time over our many years together... a married couple can take the chance and thrill to the "possibility" of a child... and we were not going to stop this time.

I pushed into her again and again. And when I moved, she moved... when I came she came... and we collapsed together in a loving embrace I can still feel. Her hands on my back... my neck. I lifted up slightly and then more saying, "I think we just made a baby."

We were scared and poor. We already had a baby boy not quite 8 months old. We lived in a small 2 bedroom apartment and I worked at a strip bar as a bar back and janitor... because a Man will do anything to feed his family. Venita didn't care that I was seeing strippers at work every night. She needed me to bring home money. And that is what I did. Every night... and slept in till 11am after getting home at 3am each night. We made love in the afternoon and made our son. It could never be forgotten.

2. one thing that really pissed you off at your spouse...do not use this that you are going thru right now...but before this....and how was it handled...make-up? repressed it? talked it out? and describe how you felt at how it was handled....

One thing that really pissed me off... my first thought is "only 1?". Okay, okay... one thing - and lets forget today and today's crap. Back in the day... she worked as a submissive at Lady Laura's, the job her Master got for her, it was to be the BEST of ALL POSSIBLE SITUATIONS.... we would play at home and I would take her to work and lock her up and others would be able to look and sort of use her but Laura would make sure no one fucked... no diseases... and it would be intense but I would be the Master she came home to... and told her stories and fuck.
That just didn't happen... work burned her out of fun stuff at home and she didn't want to talk about sessions and so there came a time when it was obviously time to quit...
The job was getting to her... it was supposed to be for nasty fun and big money and it was not getting to be neither. I wanted her to stop... and because of the lure of big money she wouldn't/couldn't. I was the Master? Ha! it was clear then that she would always do what she wanted and justify it however she had to. Pissed me off? you bet... resolved ? we talked and talked and talked.... I know and understand all her reasons... in her head she has to do whatever she has to do... and so it was clear there was a limit to serving Me... to loving me. She serves herself, perhaps, as we all should? Eventually she did quit - part of the solution was me not pushing her... I shut up about it - the best I could.



MewithLove









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notes to self... from the spirit angel

Thought for the evening or day..."In a full heart there is room for everything, and in an empty heart there is room for nothing." Fill Your heart with all the love that is around You(the boys)...letting it consume You...it is then You will feel full.


Dont worry everything will be allright!


can feel something...like Sir is hurting...please close Your eyes and allow the angels to comfort You. Relax and know they are there for You...talk to you soon! Everything will be allright.


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SirwLove: (reaches down and pinches her as he passes by)

um.. ouch!

SirwLove: hehehehe say ty

thank you, Sir. may i have s'more?


SirwLove: why yes... come to my office immediately
SirwLove: ** stands directly behind her chair pinching her nipples through her clothes... harder and softer then harder again

whoaaaaaaa i think i actually felt that

SirwLove: that's cuz your special like that
SirwLove: spins your chair around and pins your legs between his and grabs you by the hair in one hand....tilting your head back** *bites your lower lip then nuzzles your neck...chewing a lil bruise*

i apologize for not replying

SirwLove: mmmmmmm good I don't want to be saying things you don't want to hear...

you know i want to hear them


SirwLove: now that made me smile good girl

thank you

SirwLove: *gives your hair a tug... entwined in his fingers you have no choice but to fight or let him drag you up out of your chair and off to who knows where... can anyone see this ... he's got you by the hair!**

nice


SirwLove: *takes you down to the engineering room ... where no one goes** shoves you through the door and locks it behind him**

yum

SirwLove: *barks for you to get on your knees where you belong*
SirwLove: walks around you slowly
SirwLove: reminding you of what a tease you've been lately in the office
SirwLove: admit you've been a tease and I might go easier for you.... he warns
SirwLove: but she is too embarrassed to speak as she kneels on the cold hard floor
SirwLove: you have a choice
SirwLove: you will be my lil at work slave and I will do what I want or I will call your husband and tell him just what you've been up to at work... *shows her photos of her last trip to this room with him*

SirwLove: lol

hahahaha.. very very nice arent you creative?

SirwLove: hehehe well just for you this time.

for me? why thank you, Sir.

SirwLove: yes yes




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