frustration rules~!

man oh man...
I have been more emotional or pissed off...
but I'm hard pressed to say that I've been more frustrated!



perspective~!
snail is da best... she's been sooooo good to me.
my friend amanda too...
and in my daily life people are pulling for me...

even venita is hanging tough despite all the pressures pushing her to be her worst.
I feel so far from everything and everyone...
I keep trying to stay connect and I pray alot.
I know the devil wants me to feel like a failure...
I knew the dark side wants me to give up...
failure is not an option - its just right now I don't see how doing things the way I am...
will get me any where but down the tubes anyway.

but here we go...
I have a reason
I have something to fight for...
I have, once in my life, felt love and great passion...
I have my strength and I have my stuborn nature...
I will dig in ...and hang in
just don't expect much right now...
I burned out and lost...
sniffing in the dark for the hoobastank that will sustain me.

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by the way... deanna came back...
she's been talking to me off and on the past few days...
it is hard to believe ANYTHING she says... but I do want to hear what she has to say.
I just don't melt or fall for it any more. That's good really... for some reason the mystery of deanna is actually a good thing that keeps me from obsessing about my daily crap.

And it keeps me from pushing snail too hard...
she has a long way to go but she's all the way in my heart.

Some how she understands ME
and somehow she moves at the same pace I do.

This is what dreams are made of...
under the same sky...
singing in harmony...
for peace and love in the night.
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frustration rules!

what
where
how
why

lead me where you need me, Lord
your will not mine...
direct my free will to the place where I do your work first...
letting go of hurt
letting go of NEED...
accepting the gifts in my hand...

Perspective is EVERYTHING.
HOW YOU LOOK AT IT...
Groucho said...
If we look at it... its a barn. If we smell it ..its a stable.
Chico answered... well, lets just look at it.







"how your soul learns... blessed and burned in the fire of your life!"