snail says:
Do You remember the date W/we first met?
Either in person or online??

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
april 20, 2004  in person  1145pm  approx

snail says:
lol, You da best

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
on line.... was in a chatroom at msn right?

snail says:
yes

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
so before they went pay  which was Oct 15, 2003

snail says:
was i at home still or was i in toronto then?

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
Wanna say end of Sept,  toronto I think

snail says:
Hmmm ok, april is spring right?

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
lol I could never figure out where you were   you called everything "home" I'm home now Sir   duh   lol

snail says:
hehehe

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
then I learned the word Innisfil

snail says:
lmao

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
new word for Sir.   sounds funny like one of your made up words so its cool

snail says: You are so cute and silly Sir  love Ya


snail says:
How would You describe O/our friendship Sir?

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says: okay swallows...lol  wry smile
 hmmmmmm okay was FIRST a D/s relationship ON Line     it was ONLY supposed to be that
 and it got to be a very intense one quickly

snail says:
yes

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
not because it was great cyber or we had a lot in common but because... you were willing  you had the true submissive open heart .. one that wanted to learn

snail says:
well ya i mean how else do you become a good slave if you're not willing to learn lol
 be open to new ideas*

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
yes ...next it became obvious to me you needed a friend more than a Dom... I could make you do stuff but it wasn't fun because you were hurting so much

snail says:
alright

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
so I became a friend ...not something I usually do    and by that time... I wanted you collared so that no stupid man would hurt you again

snail says:
awwwwww Sir

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
and you'd be protected from the rest of the on line Dom's  I didn't know if I was right for you..just that the others were not and you would not know...that's what I THOUGHT

snail says:
hehe that better not be why You want me collared now Sir

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
back then we talked about meeting in April
mmmmmmm and I thought that if I survived to April and you survived your crap til April we DESERVED TO MEET

snail says:
hehe

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
and all through the months of December and January and February you stuck with me

you had it rough..

felt suicidal

so did I

we really had a hard time
but we stayed friends

even when we couldn't talk

snail says:
this is blog worthy Sir

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
I never demanded it be a D/s relationship I told you over and over... sincerly 'You don't have to do this to keep me "

snail says:
Yes i remember that oh so well...

over and over You would say i will still be Your friend even without all the D/s stuff

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
so that took the pressure off of meeting

snail says:
And to be honest all the things You did helped me decide and feel comfortable being with You...

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
I knew we could meet and just be friends..and get along when Hoobastank hit
 and you sent it to me
 and we shared music like that


now I am old enough to be your dad... and sometimes I want to be your father...guide you help you never keep you back from exploring the whole world

so we have that too... Mentor Older Perspective real Friend/Dad

snail says:
Sir i will tell You this, everything You have done up to this point (and i know going forward too) has been nothing but the perfect thing, You always know the right things to say the right things to do, and that is how You gained my trust Sir...that is why i feel comfortable with You as a friend and as a salve. i know You would not ever hurt me in any way and want what is best for me

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
so I started as your Dom on line
 and now I am everything...

snail says:
hehehe yes

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
friend ...lover ... sometimes dad..... always Dom

snail says: But i think that is good for me right now...and i think that it will help make me a better slave, and a better person Sir

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
it is the good thing in a swirling mist of crap that life has dealt each of us
so what is our relationship?

it is an adult affair ... and it is wrong... by many standards...

snail says:
yes true

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
it is beautiful sweet love in the midst of awful pain

it is some hormones that can't behave and acting on attraction

it is real... because I have been there... and you've been in my place too...

it is the best kind of friendship


snail says:
it is just what You said..it is something good feeling in the midst of awful pain, and it keeps us both going

hmmm

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
and you can blog that!

Save a Horse, Ride A Cowboy says:
O/our love is wrong, but something good in the midst of pain

or hurt* instead of pain

▫§ìřŵ£övê▫™ says:
hurt is more correct

pain is more musical

love you

snail says:
love You too Sir

This convo is going to be blogged
 
 
 
 
 
 
"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

ty snail for all you do!

I read your blogs everyday....

and I know you read mine...

thanks for being there!

 
let all good things come to snail-t0wn

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

sooooooooooooper snail ...we gotta find a way to meet again !  tame and untame smiles and wegs
 
 
 
 
"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

known and unknown
 
there are lessons to learn
there are schools of thought
there are ways and means
and the end
always
justifies the means
and the ways
always
out weigh
what you have learned before
then school is closed
and there are lessons to unlearned
but its those little things
that tell you what you're worth
all the small things
the small minutes
the tiny hours
the times you said
nothing
and my mind raced through what is known and unknown
 
 
 
 
 
 
"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

anyway I did what I thought I wanted...
 
and venita responded
and was nice to me this morning...
 
I proved once again I could make her feel good. 
 
she came 2 times at least,
 
 
 
and tonight she said...
"we're not doing that again tonight.... someday, maybe... "
I finished the sentence.  
"This morning will probably serve to confuse me more than ever when you actually leave me...  but it was medicine I needed... to just keep going.  We don't have to tell anyone we did "it".  Just in case you don't think you really want to again."
 
I know she will fuck Randy again...
and wait forever for Mario...
and I will never be touched or special to her.
perhaps mr usher is right...
I have to findawaytoletitburngottaletitburnletburngottaletitburnburnburn 
 
oh the monster I battle is a nightmare! 
 
 
 
 
"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

the best thing in snail's blog these past few days was a short message to me about something personal between U/us... but really it is worth re-reading and making into mantra.
 
quoting snail: Sir, i don't want You to have hesitations ...just do what You want.
 
 
 
"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"