(intro)
DUM-DE-DE-DUM, DE-DE-DUM-DE-DE-DUM,
DE-DAA-DAAAAA
DUM-DE-DE-DUM, DE-DE-DUM-DE-DE-DUM,
DE-DAA-DAA-DAA-DAA-DAAAA!
Well, I walk into the room
Passing out hundred dollar bills
And it kills and it thrills like the horns on my Silverado grill
And I buy the bar a double round of crown
And everybody's getting down
An' this town ain't never gonna be the same.
(Chorus:)
Cause I saddle up my horse
and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
on my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy
Well I don't give a dang about nothing
I'm singing and Bling- Blanging
While the girls are drinking
Long necks down!
And I wouldn't trade ol' Leroy
or my Chevrolet for your Escalade
Or your freak parade
I'm the only John Wayne left in this town
And I saddle up my horse
and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
on my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy
(Spoken:)
I'm a thourough-bred
that's what she said
in the back of my truck bed
As I was gettin' buzzed on suds
Out on some back country road.
We where flying high
Fining, whine, having ourselves a big and rich time
And I was going, just about as far as she'd let me go.
But her evaluation
of my cowboy reputation
Had me begging for slavation
all night long
So I took her out giggin frogs
Introduced her to my old bird dog
And sang her every Wilie Nelson song I could think of
And we made love
And I saddled up my horse
and I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
on my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy
What? What?
Save A Horse Ride A Cowboy
Everybody says
Save a Horse Ride a cowboy.



















"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

snail is HERE yay!!!!!!!


hope she feels welcome and gets to figure out her stuff...

hope she knows I smile when she's around




and I am adding "Patrick" to the list of guys not invited to the Man Club meetings...lol
he's an ass.





more later
















"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

life tonight is strangely sweet....

good friends and fun baseball ...

I pitched tonight and struck out 3 guys in a row....

 
and then Rob took us all out....

I really needed it... first time in years I had 3 margaritas!

 
wooo hooo

 

 
so tomorrow brings uncertainty and crap?

 

 
fuck it....

 

I had fun tonight despite what ever venita and randy are doing...

I am smiling...

 
ty ty ty God for my blessings....

 
and wooohoooo gotta get up soon...so going to bed.

 

 
 
 
 
 
"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

talked a little bit with venita last night...
Randy in the hospital...
things are insane...

my chest is pounding...
panic attacks every 5 min...

when will this ever end?

God be with me.

no cell phones for a while I guess...

grrrrrr.

email me folks!
 
 
"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

 
 
 
another day in the frying pan....

trying to figure out....

has she lied (even to herself) so many times she can't tell what the truth is?

hmmmm
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

 
I really don't know what to do next... this is just so hard!

 
venita!  goddamn this !

 

snail!  help!!!

 fuck oh crap
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

another day in hell :(

the power's been shut off again and she's ready to leave again for good...
do I just agree with everyone and let her go?

 
damn
 
 
 
 
"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

 
 
 
 
 
 
my stomach aches this morning....
full of worry for snail....

worries about money

worries about my friends...

and failure is not an option...

God give me the strength to make you proud of me

Spirit girl where ever you are... find me!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

yourspiritangel: let me introduce you to my friend....he is bright & witty...has a great personality...a very sexy smile...so caring of others...good with his kids....so caring of the ones in his household...giving of his all....seems to know what is important in life...very nice looking man...a hunk bod... i am not sure how he is on yardwaork  lol
 
SirwLove: can I tell you
 
yourspiritangel: he has so much to offer...to himself  lol
 
SirwLove: friday night before she left
 
SirwLove: I said I would cut the grass when I got home from baseball Saturday
 
SirwLove: she had Randy cut it ... on Saturday morning after I left to go play
 
SirwLove: that really hurt for some reason
 
SirwLove: worse than the fact that he's fucking her
 
yourspiritangel: he invaded your space
 
SirwLove: and she had no clue that I would be hurt
 
yourspiritangel: worst of all she allowed him to invade your space
 
SirwLove: or maybe she didSirwLove: she told me that it hurt her to have nikki here
that I let nikki spend one night ...alone mind you... in her bed
 
SirwLove: that nikki was on her computer and in her fridge
well fuck...venita left
and I needed nikki to watch the boys
 
SirwLove: and she bought us foodSirwLove: so yes...she got to be in the fridge
 
SirwLove: and further...venita has been with randy now 7 different times
 
SirwLove: I have seen nikki 3 times
 
SirwLove: and it been me REACTING to her affair
 
SirwLove: never me starting it
 
SirwLove: even before I go I beg her to stop all this
 
yourspiritangel: *listens
 
SirwLove: so venita says I hurt her with nikki invading her space but she was polite about it   and she expects me to be polite now about randy... HONESTLY she said that
 
yourspiritangel: i can imagine her doing that
 
SirwLove: she creates all this chaos ....so no one knows what to say or how to get her to come to her senses
 
yourspiritangel: and that is not even on a list to do

yourspiritangel: she has no senses right now
 
SirwLove: is like firemen arriving to put out a fire and her starting lil fires in the street to distract them
SirwLove: to distract from the money probs...and her eating and throwing up daily problem
 
yourspiritangel: go buy a big red bow
 
SirwLove: and arrow?

yourspiritangel: no
 
SirwLove: to shoot her?
 
yourspiritangel: just a bow
 
SirwLove: damn
 
yourspiritangel: big red pretty bow
 
SirwLove: was gonna do that idea
 
SirwLove: lol listens
 
yourspiritangel: and wrapt it around her...and hand her to Randy...and please tell him ....good luck

yourspiritangel: best wishes
 
SirwLove: she doesn't want him
 
SirwLove: she's just using him
 
SirwLove: like she is using me
 
yourspiritangel: sorry....but with all indications....she does
 
SirwLove: we are both stupid
 
SirwLove: she wants only mario
 
yourspiritangel: no you are not
 
yourspiritangel: let her go get Mario...Randy....Albert....Dave....Roger...whoever....let her keep fucking and running in her life....you are much better than that
 
SirwLove: so my boys will end up hating mom and I can stop that train wreck
 
yourspiritangel: that is problemyourspiritangel: you have no control over what your boys will think
 
SirwLove: and that will fuck up their lives
 
yourspiritangel: self survival...

yourspiritangel: no it wont
 
SirwLove: it fucked me up   to see what my parents did
it fucks with everyone
 
SirwLove: it affects how you make choices
 
SirwLove: my bad choices come from what happened in my home growing up
 
yourspiritangel: so it wont fuck up their lives to see what she is doing when they get older....and then to see you allow it?
 
SirwLove: I have felt I had a window of opportunity to get her to come to her sensesSirwLove: before they are damaged
 
SirwLove: I think that window will close in the next yearyourspiritangel: fuck your past...its gone...you have to make the best of your life NOW....and for the boys...and you are very capable of givng them the best you can....
 
SirwLove: and it won't matter...
 
yourspiritangel: what window?
 
SirwLove: have felt I had a window of opportunity to get her to come to her senses
 
SirwLove: before they are damaged
 
yourspiritangel: let them live with reality
 
SirwLove: yes and then they can have fucked up relationships too ...this is not a family
 
yourspiritangel: dont try and shelter them...they will grow up and not know how to handle a situation similar
 
SirwLove: this will just continue the crap generation after generation
 
yourspiritangel: no
 
SirwLove: it has to stop now
 
yourspiritangel: at least they will know to walk away when they have been abused by their spouse...
 
SirwLove: okay I hear your point
 
yourspiritangel: and i am not saying divorce is good.....
but what they are learning is that its okay to neglect Dad....he takes it....Mom does what she wants with whomever she wants...
you are V's lifeline....esp with money...she could not make it without you...

yourspiritangel: you have a much better poker hand than you know  i am sorry    i will shut up now

SirwLove: shutting up is not the answer...lol   my poker hand is better than I know?

yourspiritangel: yes it is   i would rather have yours than hers

Andrew....was talking so good and positive....and was taking control of things in his life...with Kiska gone...he sat one night and talked with his 4 yr old and all the walls he had built came tumbbling down because of the words...."I want you to live here with Mommy"....

SirwLove: right....  ty for understanding  how hard it is when the boys tell me to keep trying

yourspiritangel: my defence was....yes all children want to live with their mommys & daddys...but to keep a child in an abusive situation...is more harmful to them...and himself and for Kiska...  kids always want McDonalds too...but you know there are times they cant have it....so why the double standard?

SirwLove: okay SirwLove: yes

yourspiritangel: im sorry

SirwLove: its hard to dissappoint your kids

yourspiritangel: i get so fucking pissed too but dont think of it as a dissappointment....think of it as a change for the good for them   their dad will be a better person on the inside for them 
and they wont have to be dissappoinmted when you try so hard and they see her not respond to you...it dissappoints them too 

 
lets change the subject  please
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
"Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"

found in my web wandering this morning....
 
good words from a really kinky lady in California...
 
inspiration when its needed!

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"Wisdom In Loving and Loss"

Welcome to my little corner of a great big web... I would hope that in reading this page all might find serenity in their day and love to fill the emptiness in the soul...

God never intended that we should spend life lost or alone, even though there may be times that we would feel it was His wish for us.

Always know that wherever God closes a door He always opens a window...

This page as all others in a fast growing collection is a compilation of the works and gentle feelings of one with an incredibly delicate spirit...

But one though whose spirit may be delicate also holds immense strength

and wisdom within her gentle soul...
Written with Love Unconditional“From the Desk Of”Reverend Littledove Elisbeth Rooney

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Memo from God"
I am God.

Today I will be handling all of your problems.

Please remember that I do not need your help.

If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle,

do not attempt to resolve it.

Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box.

It will be addressed in My time, not yours.

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold on to it or remove it.

Holding on or removal will delay the resolution of your problem.

If it is a situation that you think you are capable of handling,

please consult me in prayer to be sure that it is the proper resolution.

Because I do not sleep nor do I slumber,

there is no need for you to lose any sleep.

Rest my child. If you need to contact me, I am only a prayer away.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Be happy with what you have"
Should you find it hard to get to sleep tonight;

Just remember the homeless family who has no bed to lie in.

Should you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair.

There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work;

Think of the man who has been out of work for years.

Should you despair over a relationship gone bad;

Think of the person who has never known

what it's like to love and be loved in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend;

Think of the woman in dire straits,

working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance;

Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror;

Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about,

asking "what is my purpose?";

Be thankful.

There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness,

ignorance, smallness or insecurities;

Remember, things could be worse.

You could be them!!!!

 
 
 
 
"No where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be... it's easy! All you need is LOVE!"