Saturday, February 28, 2004

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To the true and only owner of my entire body

I think I have failed to please you today Sir, so when I had dinner tonight this slut decided she must suffer and in doing so hope she pleases her owner

The meal the slut had cooked was Spaghetti Bolognaise and in a pathetic attempt to please you Sir this pain slut decided to eat it in bondage.

She tied a thin cord very tightly around her ankles and two others above and below her knees, she was wearing only a thin red dress and not another stitch of clothing at all. She pulled the dress off and tossed it aside leaving the pain slave meat slut completely naked. She noticed that the slut’s nipples were very hard and erect her pussy was dripping wet but as it was a Saturday she did not touch it although the slut was whimpering with lust.

She served the dinner and placed it on the kitchen floor [No comfort of a dining room for this slut] she got another rope and wrapped round and round her wrists which were behind her back. She would have tied the rope but then would not have been able to escape her bondage. Is this permissible Sir or must the pain slut be punished yet again?

The slave meat slut then fell to the floor and put her stupid face into the bowl of Spaghetti It was still very hot Sir and your pain slut screamed with the sudden pain which was made worse by the slut being unable to touch her face. She slowly started to lap up her meal. Oh Sir it was quite horrible the slut had never tried this before and being unable to support herself due to the bondage she was soon a disgusting mess with food in the cunt’s hair, dripping down her breasts and all over the silly slut’s face. Somehow she finished the meal and staggered to her feet,.

She made no attempt to clean herself for the remainder of the evening and kept the bondage in place .The food dried on her body. It was sticky and horrible. She left the bowl and mess on the floor and somehow with her legs and hands still tied fell into bed unwashed, not showered and in tight bondage to please you her only owner.

The pain slut piece of slave meat hopes she has pleased you Sir

Your slave meat piece of a slavegirl cunt and whore

slavegirl


**she made one spelling mistake..she'll have to be punished...but keep trying (smiles)
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o1 : rattles the cup

SirwLove : hehehe I'm playing here..lol

o1 : ooo hiya Sir

SirwLove : wish you were here lol

o1 : aww

SirwLove : I thought you couldn't get in the chat room c'mere...grabs you by the hair and kisses you softly then more aggressively pushing his tongue in your mouth....then growls low and smiles forehead to forehead...

o1 : mm meltsss kisses You back passionatly

SirwLove : a finger finds your clit and teases very lightly at it... while he continues kissing your mouth... lil bites to your tongue...mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

o1 : ohh squirms clit swelling pressing into You

SirwLove : good girl...very good to see you again... now I remember why I like those lips sooo much... and you smell good too

o1 : mmm ty Sir

SirwLove : tweaks that clit once and pulls back... whispers ask for more and you might get it

o1 : moanss yessss please Sir juices welling growing moist

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SirwLove : mmmmmmm leans to her neck and bites gently chewing working on marking her neck with a passionate love bite... fingers now spreading her lips and teasing her clit more and more...spreading the wetness

o1 : mmmm moans throwing head back clit swollen hard moaning out

SirwLove : one then 2 fingers find their way up inside her... violating her.... calling out her submissivenes

o1 : ooohh feels them in me probing squirminggg moans outtt squeezing gently against them

SirwLove : whispers "you are delicious"

o1 : mmm

SirwLove : pulls his finger to his lips to taste

o1 : squirms watching

SirwLove : takes her in his arms and pulls you close...

o1 : relaxes in warm embrace

SirwLove : nuzzles her neck...hands go to her ass.... Male enjoys female form

Friday, February 27, 2004

Going Blind

A first moment...
the spellbound motives
of your kiss.

An initial raindrop...
wets you to attention,
sending sultry butterflies...
You are stirring my leaves
In your wind.

I stand in a meadow...
watching sky...
drawing you in the clouds...
In the trees you
watch my nonsense...
Swing on the supple branches
as you do on my arm...
Bending the limbs
as you turn my head.

Then, finding comfortable branches...
Drawing the shades with your 'green-ness'
Just as you close my eyes.

6/15/79







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"come scribble your love notes"


I don't mean to be distant when I should be close.
I don't mean to be in your face
when I should be busy...
doing my stuff.

I don't mean to ignore the things that make me great...
as I worry over the treasure that makes me shine.


I do mean to tell you I love you...
in actions not in words.
I do mean to free you with all that I do...

I do mean to make you feel safe, cherished and irreplaceable.


I can't see your thoughts but I feel my friend struggle...
then I struggle as I try to help.
I have plans for you... yes.
each minute of life that ticks away... steals
the one thing we can not earn more of - time.

When we were apart...
before we met...
before we moved in...
before we...

we only dreamed of time together and alone.

Life's journey seems to pull and tear at that dream.

But all my ills can be cured in your soft hands and warm strokes.

Come scribble your love notes on my chest...
traced with one finger and fall asleep -
Grateful that we have the time...
even if we don't have the energy

Sir%withLove
















































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Thursday, February 26, 2004

I AM SOOOO FUCKING ANGRY AGAIN TODAY...

I try to be a good man but everyday ... every time something goes wrong...
Its time to examine everything again...

what I think and want and believe.

I hurt myself with my own stupid bravado... I have to get back to self discipline and not NEED anyone

I was foolish for thinking anyone really likes me...
I was stupid for trying help others...
no one cares really except about themselves.

this week's fun - crashes to a halt...

a sense of stirring to life
around me

confusion reigns supreme,
trying to clean up the mess
and I don't see why.
the busy nature of things flies by
my window
the breeze of spring puts me to sleep.

who I was
who I am
who I'll be...
and how much does it matter
the building storm of emotion outside
my window
the wind of change and questions unanswered.

as the weather changes me again
from winter wraps and heavy cover
I feel less ready to be open.
and while 40 degrees feels like -40
I am less ready to see the sun
less and less ready to
stretch out the hours of the day
for more.

this is how, I think...
a thirsty plant dies.

4/6/2002

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In my Faith
I live the life I have dreamed
since I was
small
since I was
one of the little children
Jesus, you have called to me!

Year in and out I have failed you...
been so much less than you dreamed,
and yet you love me
and hold me
and
shelter me in my
smallness, weakness and sin.

In great Faith I am
humbled before you,
learning in my struggles,
hating my sin,
both of us, Lord...
loving my child
I dream tonight of sniffing
again
the flower of forgiveness.

I know what to do with such a gift.
5/22/2002

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Afternoon Grace

The sound is pretty electric guitar…

But the weight is large…

I can hear the music of Creed,

Steven singing…

"I cried out, Heaven,

Save Me…

but I’m down to my last breath."

And then, I hear Patty…

Her grand laughter

filtering down the hallway.

And we all feel it,

That little granting of Grace…

that little lift in my heart…

Not because I knew the joke…

Her afternoon ‘phone laugh’ is enough

All on it’s own.

And for a moment

The burden is lifted…

God strokes my face and

I’m smiling now,

Listening to her…

Enjoying her life.



9-11-02

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"come scribble your love notes"


I don't mean to be distant when I should be close.
I don't mean to be in your face
when I should be busy...
doing my stuff.

I don't mean to ignore the things that make me great...
as I worry over the treasure that makes me shine.


I do mean to tell you I love you...
in actions not in words.
I do mean to free you with all that I do...

I do mean to make you feel safe, cherished and irreplaceable.


I can't see your thoughts but I feel my friend struggle...then I struggle as I try to help.
I have plans for you... yes.
each minute of life that ticks away... steals
the one thing we can not earn more of - time.

When we were apart...
before we met...
before we moved in...
before we married...
before we had our lovely wild monkeys...

we only dreamed of time together and alone.

Life's journey seems to pull and tear at that dream.

But all my ills can be cured in your soft hands and warm strokes.

Come scribble your love notes on my chest...
traced with one finger and fall asleep -
Grateful that we have the time...
even if we don't have the energy

Sir%withLove
((1/4/02))

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

well today... on line character of Sir is smiling... it must be spring... the subbies seem to want to smile my way!
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Tuesday, February 24, 2004

Okay got through a long hard day...
cunt called... Left a message... That was sweet...
pixie called from Utah today too... oh is she pregnant!
gotta love a girl that tough... raising one baby and another on the way...
no husband...
have not heard from c in Texas... Strong meds and sleep are best for her.
also chatted with d in Ulster... That went very well :)
will timing work? she is 5 hours ahead of me. We shall see...
left message with new Zealand slave regarding email training as well...
she has written me daily begging for training and punishment.

I guess that makes me a busy on line Dom this week...lol
meanwhile,
venita leaves her wedding ring in the basement with my tools...
and
she is really only thinking of Mario...
and
each day
is
still very hard because I've lost the love of my life.
:(
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Again today I am angry...
angry and hurting...
I know others in this world are hurting...
some have larger and harder burdens than I do...
but right now I feel mostly like giving up.

venita's messenger today says pretty girl needs a loving sugar daddy.
she is so gone... why don't I let go and move out?

I think that everyday for the last few years...
but today its becoming reality.

I am finding myself thinking about what other things I might do with my life
I am finding my health sucks... I am not a happy camper... And at 45 cancer and other things will be stalking me.

also today, I am thinking about my young friend and on line slave girl - she likes me to call her cunt...
I can imagine what a week of bliss and D/s fun might be like...
I am wishing for that more and more.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like after ...I try to figure out where I'd go next.
But I don't want to move... I don't want to die...
it all just seems inevitable.

I am no help to anyone... And a sad man to be around.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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again today I am angry...
angry and hurting...
I know others in this world are hurting...
some have larger and harder burdens than I do...
but right now I feel mostly like giving up.

venita's messenger today says pretty girl needs a loving sugar daddy.
she is so gone... why don't I let go and move out?

I think that everyday for the last few years...
but today its becoming reality.

I am finding myself thinking about what other things I might do with my life
I am finding my health sucks... I am not a happy camper... and at 45 cancer and other things will be stalking me.

also today, I am thinking about my young friend and on line slave girl - she likes me to call her cunt...
I can imagine what a week of bliss and D/s fun might be like...
I am wishing for that more and more.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like after ...I try to figure out where I'd go next.
But I don't want to move... I don't want to die...
it all just seems inevitable.

I am no help to anyone... and a sad man to be around.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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