God's on vacation ?

SirwLove: I don't wanna see bad ppl news

hondaaegrl : then you must never watch the news

SirwLove: I need inspiration and reasons to live

hondaaegrl : look at one thing?
and youll know why i want them to fry well one reason

SirwLove: I watch then news a lot
SirwLove: but if its gross I "tune out" mentally
SirwLove: or flip the channel.... I can only take so much suffering...

I save my self for whatever God needs me to do first

hondaaegrl : gods on vacation havent younoticed
SirwLove: okay one could view it that way

SirwLove: I think more acurate to say God loves us and views us from the sideline
SirwLove: caring for us like a parent but we have been given FREE WILL by God

SirwLove: in this life it is up to us to choose
to come to love God... or value other things or whatever

hondaaegrl : yeah well, thats how its suppossed to be,
but its not...hes on vacation lately hasnt done anything

SirwLove: if God interfered with our free will then our souls learn nothing
and gain nothing
and God is not loved

SirwLove: so.... God comforts us...

hondaaegrl : no he doesnt he doesnt do jack
SirwLove: because there is more than THIS life

SirwLove: this life is to teach your soul something

SirwLove: hopefully that something
is to love God and love others but many choose other things

SirwLove: what happens to your soul after this life is key

hondaaegrl : eh they way i see it is he goesnt give a rip, so im not going to bother w/ him anymore, hes just been a disappointment

SirwLove: next is what does your soul learn in this life

SirwLove: there is only one thing you can take with you from this life to the next
SirwLove: your soul

SirwLove: LOL there's my view anyway ... a peek

hondaaegrl : i use to feel like that heh but not anymore







"how your soul learns... blessed and burned in the fire your life!"

a good day?

strange after such a long hard stretch...
taxes are done...
now the fight won't be about what we don't have...
for the next month its gonna be fighting about what is the priority
what to do next...
how to spend it...

shift gears and approach from a whole different view point.



"how your soul learns... blessed and burned in the fire your life!"

the current that wants to drag me under...

like most folks...

I have tons of things to do


that I don't want to do...




and a few things I'd like to do...
but just can't find the energy...


blogging is one thing I love to do...
and I have not been here enough...


I am fighting major depression...
struggling every day to not swear, hate, growl
and be a downer to those around me.

anxiety is fear of hurt/pain in the future...
LOL I am Mr. Anxiety

Lord help me to fight this devil fight

the current that wants to drag me under...
Lead me where you need me,
YOUR will,
Not Mine.













"how your soul learns... blessed and burned in the fire your life!"